I'm cutting some people out
some thoughts of mine that have been brewing in me head
I went to sleep with a stomach ache. I woke up to the shittiest news. A convicted felon is going to be back in office? Criminy! “Okay, this is scary, but don’t lose hope and fight for things with a community that shares the same beliefs as you” is what I tell myself. Then, I go check to see how California’s propositions turned out- the results. Silly, stupid me, with hope in her heart was crushed to see that my state voted: to keep slavery in prisons, against raising minimum wage, and voting for mass incarceration.
A majority of the people around me are evil.
The young ones, the old ones, the ones who live in my neighborhood, the ones who share the same ethnicity as me.
I keep wanting to ask myself the question of how or why they believe in such hateful things. Men seem to straight up hate women. Oh and to no surprise, some women too!
The urge to cut off so many people in my life over this is so real. They are showing me they do not care about me or anyone. It is easy with friends or coworkers, but I have family that voted for such a malicious orange blob. Some of them even live with me.
As I get older my respect for them keeps getting smaller and smaller. Respect for my oldest brother has been gone a long time ago.
I think about not only me and all the challenges I will face in the next four years and beyond, but I am also thinking about my second brother and his class that he teaches. See my brother teaches sped and I worry about those little kids that are a part of IEP. Which if you don’t know is a document that gives accommodations + services to students that have a developmental disorder or a learning disability. So when I hear members of my own family expressing their support I can’t think about how much they hate me and my brother.
Where am I going with this? I don’t really know. I do know that I don’t want to talk or give my time to anyone that voted red. And while I’m at it, f all men. I for sure do not want to date or touch any man.